It was a really interesting conversation i had with my colleagues on friday as we were in our usual 'Friday after 3pm' syndrome.. Normally after this time, we really are sooo lazy to work and also we like to have heavy heavy lunch on fridays!! thats why we always feel sleepyyyy and lazzyyyy..... haha... we will normally turn our chairs around and just chit chat for 10 minutes, turn back and do our work and turn and talk again.. at least we still do our work la... loL! As we talked, they asked me an very interesting question, "hey kai, your character is quite unique ah, will you ever get angry?" and i went "of cause la! i am not a saint!" and added "but quite seldom la, only went people say things about my family, i not only get angry, i might get physical as well!" This got me thinking, i am an easy going fella and i guess i have a way or two with people with my bullshitting skills.. which makes me quite lay back and relax...this in turn makes me see the surface only of certain situations which is really bad!! hMm.. it seems that sometimes being too nice is not that good after all, but anyway, i am not nice... haha.. i just love to smile as it can influence people arnd me to smile and have a rather more relax environment! and this will make me more calm, so thats why i am damn cunning as i do things for my own good! haha... =) I have a new colleague and her name is Nina.... and she cannot marry a mr Can as her name will be KNN! loL!! i think that is really damn funny la..... and it came out from her mouth, not mine.. so shes quite crap... shes from RGS, under the GIFTED scheme and went to RJC where she joined the council and stuffss and oh ya.. her o level results ah... almost all A1s except for her Higher chinese and i got to know this cause i saw her application form for a scholarship overseas.. wha biang!! makes me feel so zii bei laaa..... and her mum is of some really high position of one of the biggest organization in Singapore..... haha...... quote from her dictionary of high class vulgarities, "damn anal la!" Anyway, life working when she arrived is so much more fun la.. ok make it clear first, its not that i like her or what and stuff but more of friends.. moreover, she has a boyfriend! and this kinda of stuff, i kinda dun like to think about it already... most of the time, when i work or with peers, i am always the youngest, and since young i guess i always mix with people older than me so i tend to mature a little faster (but still not mature now la) and so when she came in, i am now a senior! it feels weird at first cause i dunnno how to react cause when i work, i always treat people with real respect cause they are always older than me, so now someone younger than me is coming in, so how should i react? of cause must treat her with respect la.. but how to communicate? so at one point i just go heck la! i should just be myself! haha... she told me that during her conversation with another colleague, they say that i used to be very quiet and then turned into a noisy and nonsense guy after awhile... haha... hmm this got me thinking again.. i think i am really a guy full of nonsense and i need time to actually adapt to an enviornment before i can really show my 'true colors'.. normally when i enter a new enviornment, i am quiet, assesing everyone's character, and just getting used to it and after a week, i am warmed up to start my engine... I got this comment many times esp in working places, or meeting new friends.. the same comment of "when i first saw u, i thought u damn serious but you are so the opposite la!" u know, i am not like those who can go into anyplace and showcase my character as not many people can take it and i am unlike those who wans to be the star of the show or during meeting with friends.. and i wonder if it is good to receive the comments i am always receiving.. does that make me very fake? i keep on wondering and reflecting and still have no ideas... but i guess as long as i am happy, it should be no problem la right.. haha... anyway, its my last week of internship!!! 5 months swoosh passss and i am entering into my next phase of life soon! they always say after internship, u will learn smth and be more mature person, but i felt that i was being me the whole time!! which is quite erm.. a bad influence as i just infleunced those Thai people to act like a Singaporean! hahhahahha! =x NS is nexT! but i need a job first.. i almost got an Adidas job.. darn it! haha so any job lobang please let me know!! =) | 
